Sunday, November 14, 2010
{ 7:37 PM }
work is accumulating, emotions are collecting with no place to express..sometimes i just feel so suffocated. it's like the next moment i might just die. there's nobody to listen because everyone's so busy with their own lives. i mean yea, some would stop if you ask them to, but do you want to trouble them?
i figured out that pretending was the best way out. you don't want to make your love ones worried, you don't want your friends to think that you're being such a weird person and always being such an emotional burden to them since they are already busy or troubled enough. i should just put up a happy and strong front. it will make matters so much better, for me and for the people around me. but it's so difficult! the elements of live keeps tearing me up..i feel so overwhelmed.
I WANT TO SCREAM OUT LOUD but i cannot. i want to hide in a corner and cry but i scared people might find me. i want to sleep forever and never to wake up but i cant bare to leave everything behind. is what i am doing now really what i want?
should i give up, or keep on trying? just pretending nothing is happening to me..
you taught me to be strong, i tried but i am failing. does it matter anymore when nobody cares?